Jan 27, 2011

Missions

  Drake left on his mission yesterday.  To see the full report, go to my parents blog.  I didn't cry near as much as I thought, but it just doesn't seem real.  I can't explain it.  My friend Crystal who works at the MTC saw Drake this morning and she said he looked like he was in a hurry.  His second day in and he already is busy!
I took his lady friend he is leaving behind out to dinner last night because I know how bad that day is.  We talked about missions, family, friends, and life.  She is great and whether or not she is around in two years, I know she will choose the best thing for her.
Lately with Drake leaving, and a few other things, fond memories of my life two years ago get stirred up.  I'm not sure if anyone even cares, but I have an opinion on waiting for a missionary.
  I dated the boy I sent off for about six months before he left.  We hung out in Provo, and I visited him and his family in California.  We even took a trip down south to Mexico.  I love that family (they probably don't have the best feelings towards me), and they taught me so much.  Just shy of 11 months I wrote.  Perhaps  not as consistently as I could, but I wrote.  I had never really given  a lot of thought to marriage and children and the church, but this missionary made me realize that I wanted all of those things.  Of course I had sad days, but for the most part I made the most of our time apart.  I wanted to develop my sense of identity, to date, to have fun, and I did.  Last year I had a great ward and great roommates that encouraged me to be who I want to be.  I became more bold and I got what I wanted.  I dated more than I ever had, and I was just doing it for fun, I was "serious" about my missionary.  And then I met Randal.  I did not want to fall for him.  In fact, I fought it.  I felt guilty for being disloyal to the boy on the mission.  I wanted my life with him.  I remember talking to my mom and saying how guilty I felt, but I really liked Randal.  My dilemma was that if my missionary was here, I would never have dated Randal.

But he wasn't supposed to be here.  He was supposed to be serving the Lord.
...and that was when it all changed...

  I allowed myself to love Randal fully, and it was right.  I am the most true form of myself when I am with him.  He makes me better and pushes me because he knows my potential. 
  Am I less of a person because, I didn't wait?  Waiting the full two years and marrying your missionary is like the golden goal, and if you can't do it then you must be weak.
  What makes me weak about breaking away from the known and stable and pursuing something that turned out to be the best decision I have ever made in my life? 
I could have waited, but that wasn't the best thing for me.
  I am so grateful for my experiences because they prepared me to be the wife and person that I am today.

Jan 4, 2011

playing catch up

Last year was great, but very busy.  
I haven't been good at blogging, but I will try to be better this year.
To recap, I'll just post some pictures, a few updates, and start fresh in 2k11.

January
I rang in the new year with Randal and realized mid January how much I loved and missed him while he went on a cruise.  Luckily, he had the same realization.

February
Valentines day I got climbing shoes.  We rock climb.

March
I flew to Hawaii to visit my friend Rachelle, and Randal proposed in the airport while I boarded my flight.  Longest 7 hours of my life.

April
School ended and I moved back to my parents house to work at the cookie factory, and Randal stayed in Provo to study for the LSAT and work.

May
work, wedding plans and engagement pics

June
Randal took the LSAT

July
I got my tonsils out and celebrated the 4th at Liberty Days.  Randal has heard about L Days since day 1.  He was not let down.  We also went to Reno to spend time with my grandparents.

August
We got married, went to Hawaii, moved into our cute little basement apartment, I started my new job, we started school, and Randal surprised me with a party for my 21st.  An amazing month.

September
Clayton family trip to Bear Lake.  Incredibly cold, but so fun.  
video
sorry it's turned

October
Halloween.  We made out like thieves at the video store-yes you read that right, not redbox, not netflix, but the store-with 2 videos, 2 sodas and 2 movie theatre candies for only 10 dollars!  I loved it and we were able to rent older movies ie the scary ones.  I am still scared by one of them.  

November
Two Thanksgivings.  I was especially pleased considering it is my favorite holiday.  My parents gave us Christmas decorations, so we spent that last bit of November decorating. 

December
Double Christmas.  School ended and it ended up being my best semester so far, Randal did well too, but he always does... and my sister had her baby, Scarlet.  We have been pretty blessed in the nieces and nephews department.  Lucky for us, Claytons and Louds make some cute kids.  


2k10 was filled with love, family, and good food (we perfected sushi, tempura, indian food, and many latin dishes).  
It was a great year, but I have a sneaking suspicion that 2k11 is gonna werk.